Wishcasting Wednesday...

When I first read Jamie’s prompt for Wishcasting Wednesday, “What do you wish to tell the world?” I thought I’d just write what I was feeling.

I wanted to tell the world that everything is hard. That life is a challenge. That there are tests and trials we are put through without a clear reason for them. Life is something that happens to us, that we have no control, and that, no matter how hard you try, bad things will happen. I wanted to tell the world that you can achieve every goal you set, but only after a struggle.

That is what I wanted to write. Then I thought for a minute, maybe this post would be too much of a downer, so I clicked on Mr. Linky to read what other blogger’s had posted. Each one wrote of hope, abundance, opportunity, creativity, and other very positive messages. I didn’t think it appropriate to post what I was feeling…these feelings of sadness and grief.

I’ve been thinking about this all day. Thinking about the depression that I believe has set in again. Thinking about the trials I’m going through and the feelings of hopelessness I have. I shared this morning’s experience with my daughter during our nightly visit with my father, in the hospital. I told her I felt bad posting what I was feeling and she encouraged I post anyway. She said, if it’s how you’re feeling, then why would it be bad? So, here we are, at 7:30 in the evening, and I’m responding to Jamie’s prompt from the depths of my soul.

Wishcasting Wednesday

Last Wednesday we celebrated the opening of Jamie's new webspace and wishcasted success for our creative leader. This week, we turn to back to ourselves with the wishcast prompt...

What do you wish to invite in?

I wish to invite into my soul...

happiness and joy to every new day of my life,

peace to sooth and calm myself,

fearlessness to try new things,

and

God to help me face the challenges of life with strength and dignity.

Wishcasting Wednesday

Today, Jaime shared her wish...to launch her new site on a Wishcasting Wednesday...and I wish her success with her launch next Wednesday!

So, in that vein, her prompt for us is

What do you wish to nurture?

I wish to nurture my creativity and spontaneity.

I wish to nurture my body, mind and spirit.

I wish to nurture my family and friends.

I wish to nurture the teachers, staff, and students with whom I work.

And most of all, I wish to nurture myself so I can nurture all those people and things I wish to nurture.

Reflection on the last day at this workplace...

Well, today was the last day at my current workplace. Although I'm glad to move on, I'm sad to leave. I already miss the people I work with...the relationships that have developed over the past couple of years. I will miss the potential that has not been realized and I will miss what might have been. I cleared my office, erased my hard drive, deleted my phone greeting and messages. I have cleared all evidence of my existence in that office. Sad to say, but that's how it had to be. I look forward...as I always do...to new experiences, new relationships, new potential. As my father says, just keep moving forward.

Wishcasting Wednesday

Today Jamie asks us to ponder...

Who or what do you wish to play with?

I wish to play with my friends and family.

I wish to be active.

I wish run and play at the beach.

I wish to relax at my cottage.

I wish to dance with wild abandon.

I wish to listen to music so loud my whole body shakes.

I wish to rollerblade again (once I'm down to a "normal" weight so I don't kill myself).

I wish to cycle up hills and still be able to breath!!

I wish to be active with my friends and family.

I wish to dance

And

To all, I Hope You Dance...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTQfERb9HVk

Wishcasting Wednesday

Today's wish question is:

What is your wish for June?

My wish for June is for my father to get strong enough to leave the hospital and get on with his new life as an amputee. My wish is for my father to be enlighten that this is not the end of the rope and that he can continue to live a full life, even though it might not the same life he had before his leg was amputated.

I wish my father would start eating again, regardless of whether he thinks hospital food is good or not, but that he will see how important it is to eat in the journey back to health. I wish he will live to see his 84th birthday on June 24th. And I wish for the strength to be there for him without losing myself completely, as I feel parts of me have chipped away and fallen by the wayside.

I wish health for my father and peace for myself.

Wishcasting Wednesday

This week Jamie asks us to consider...

What's frivolous treat do you wish for?

That's an easy one for me this week. There is a diamond semi-eternity band I would like as a gift for our 25th wedding anniversary.

Wishcasting Wednesday

This week Jamie @ Starshyne Productions has us ask ourselves:

What is your highest self wishing for?

What's rumbling in your soul?

What is your highest self wishing for?
My wish for myself is to be understanding. To quash the angry feelings I have as a result of past mistakes. To be kinder to myself in order to help repair my emotional scars. To be kinder to myself by finding ways to work through the stresses in my life and find positive ways to express stress rather than stuffing my mouth with junk food.

What's rumbling in your soul?
The desire to live a creative life. The desire to treat my body as a temple and feed it good food and keep it moving. The desire to love myself, as I love my family, and forgive myself once and for all. The desire to stop judging myself and, in turn, be kind to my soul.

Wishcasting

It's Sunday morning and I was just perusing some of the blogs I follow. I've decided to join Jamie's Starshyne Wishcasting Wednesday (even though I'm starting on Sunday, I think this is a good exercise for me).

Who do you wish to connect to?

I wish to connect with me. The 'me' who was more carefree than the one I know now. The 'me' who had pride in herself and didn't punish her body for every little thing she deems as a "failure" - this 'me' hasn't been around for a long, long time.

I wish to connect with me who believed she could do anything. I think I'm meeting up with her now, as I am trying the things I've wanted to do in my lifetime.

I wish to connect with me and be happy.